"oh what am I to do but surrender to you" its the only thing to do that makes complete sense yet is so irrational. it seems like jumping into the middle of the deepest and most powerful ocean giving up complete control. You stop gasping for breathe. you cease the kicking and struggling and you rest. for some inexplainable reason you float, you are floating there amazed unsure of where you are heading and you know any effort to go in any direction other then where the ocean takes you is a vain attempt to survive. "why did i agree to this..." you may ask, "this unknown, this loss of perceived control?" yet you know deep down it is the best risk you've ever taken. the desires of your heart wane because your greatest faith is put in this ocean. of course you want to live because you had it all planned out. you knew what your occupation would be, you had financial backing for emergencies, where you would live, you even had a glimpse of who you would marry someday and raise a beautiful family, but right now you realize your fate, hopes, and dreams are up to this ocean and where it takes you. perhaps land where these specific desires of your heart is over this next wave or it could be miles away. it may have some of those things or maybe that piece of land is a mere dream and the ocean is carrying you to an island of completely different yet great expectations that make those old desires seem unrewarding. for now you wait, anxiously but somehow content with all that is going on around you. there is one thing for sure, whoever you may see you share the amazing adventure with others.
So let's risk the ocean... I want to be lost in this sea of grace... to go where He goes and follow and not be afraid. oh Abba God send me.
that's where i am right now. some would say give it a week, it's probably a post-mission trip high, but God is working out something within me. i can't eat, sleep, and my mind keeps spinning and only cure is risking this ocean. my only question is will you risk it with me?
Origin Stories: Brave Monster
8 years ago
3 comments:
word. I know exactly where you're coming from because I'm there too. It's scary sometimes but a safer bet than anything in this world!
To say that I relate is a null point that I've restated far too often in the past few days. I really just wanted to play the role of blogger support and comment on how wonderful your tags/labels are.
yea i think adding the labels makes me feel good about posting... oddly enough Uganda has been used three times and a gungor song twice
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